“What is it that i love about Maria being my Mistress”?
Sounds easy, but i did not want to simply spew ideological nonsense or meaningless romanticism either.
This is a difficult question and one that touches me on many, many levels.
Firstly, Mistress Marie is one of those very special and rare diamonds that do not often grace this earth. When they do, people notice them shine and can not help but be effected by their presence.
The first time i properly noticed Mistress and chatted with her, i knew then! I felt something. (We were at a bdsm and fetish nightclub in Exeter called ‘eXtremm’)
I can’t explain what it was that i felt, nor did it really come to light till later on as things developed.
Secondly, getting to know Mistress on a social and kinky level, I knew that she was very spiritual, grounded and rounded too. Mistress had seen a lot and been through a lot and had been left stronger and wiser for it, but without the hardness and bitterness that often accompanies such a journey.
Thirdly, a little bit shallow but, Mistress looks absolutely stunning when she is shining and clad in fetish clothes or even just her stockings and heels! When Mistress is in Mistress mode… she is really feckin hot!!!
Now we get onto how ‘Mistress’ makes me feel… Well, where do i start?
When we are in our roles and we are both ‘in the zone’ It’s like we are not playing roles or games and we are just allowing ourselves to be free. It can be so intense and challenging sometimes that it is mind-blowing!
It has taken me nearly 40 years to build a wall of protection around me and it has taken Mistress about 12 months to dismantle it and see the real me beneath the protective veneer. Mistress knows who i am and what i am, even if i can not admit it to myself sometimes. Mistress knows.
With Mistress i can allow all my insecurities to dissolve. With Mistress i can be me without thinking about it. With Mistress i can surrender.
Not too long a go a close friend of ours passed away in a motorcycle accident. This event made me appreciate what Mistress meant to me and made me reflect on how i would feel if Mistress was taken away from me.
Without Mistress in my life there would be a huge part of me that would be completely empty again… like it was me that was dead inside. It is only with Mistress that i get to ‘be’.
Kink is such a huge part our life and it has taken a long time to get to a position of real trust and understanding. What i have with Mistress is like nothing i have ever experienced before. It is new and continually evolves and grows. It is deeper than anything i have ever experienced and continues to get deeper.
for as long as i can remember i have crossdressed and fantasized about femdom. Wishing and hoping for the day that i might really meet someone who loves me for who and what i am rather than what they want me to be. Those hopes and wishes led me to Mistress and it was then that fantasy turned to reality.
Mistress has really helped me to explore the ‘sissy’ within. I had always seen it as a sissy side and a male side, but Mistress sees it differently. Mistress says that in reality i am just a sissy and that the male part is just a costume that i slip on now and then. I had never really thought of it that way and still like to think that there is still a male part of me.
I also love all the kinky play we get upto! Mistress really does know how to make me feel like a ‘sissy’!
Mistress ties me up , whips me, canes me, punishes me, fucks me, teases me, pleases me, frustrates me, makes me dribble, calls me a sissy and treats me like her sissy bitch and for all that i love her even more!