Dear Diary – 008 (part 1)

Mistress had that look in her eyes last night… Like she wanted to rip me apart and devour my soul! By the time she was dressed in her stockings, high heels and latex, I wanted to be devoured!

First Mistress led me to the bedroom and had me strip down, I could see the outfit she wanted me to wear already laid out on the bed. Sensing her urgency and need, I quickly got dressed. As soon as i had my outfit on and my heels buckled, Mistress ordered me to stand and bend over.  Applying lube to my anus, she soon slipped in one of my favorite toys… the inflatable butt-plug. After a dozen pumps or so, i was starting to feel really full and then Mistress ordered me to my knees…

“MMmmm, you look soooo cute! Now lick my shoes and show me what a good little sissy you are… that’s it… good girl”!

I knelt there kissing and worshipping her fabulous black patent, drop dead gorgeous heels. I had no idea what she had in mind but she had said that she just wanted to make me helpless and use me abuse me!

Mistress then had me kiss all the way up to her pussy and told me to lick. I buried my head in deep and began licking her, trying my best to bring her to orgasm. However after only about 5 mins or so, she ordered me up and onto the bed. Mistress produced some heavy-duty bandages and first bound my legs and thighs. Then my forearms were bound together up in front of my face, rendering them useless. Once i was bandaged into place and totally helpless, Mistress then produced the parachute for my balls.

Firmly in place, the chain was then stretched and attached to the bottom of the bed, pulling my balls into a slightly uncomfortable but slightly erotic position. Mistress then placed a blindfold over my eyes, leaving me in total darkness. I could feel my heart start to race as my mind wondered at what might lay in store for me now. As i lay there bound, helpless and blind, knowing that Mistress simply wanted to use and abuse me… i kept seeing that hungry look in her eyes in the back of my mind!

Forced Pussy Worship!

Now don’t get me wrong here… I love licking pussy, especially when it is my Mistress’s cute and gorgeous pussy!!!

But there is just something hot about feeling a bit used and abused when you are told to do it on command. Especially when you are feeling a little helpless in the mix.

I have a thousand and one different scenarios and context’s in which I am kneeling at my Mistresses nylon clad legs and hot and sexy heels, licking her pussy into multiple orgasms!

Sometimes, my arms are bound behind my back and Mistress has me on a leash or sometimes it is attached to my balls, so that Mistress can give them a tug when she feels I am losing motivation!

Sometimes i am told to slowly crawl to her on my hands and knees in front of a room full of her friends, just to show them her power and control over me…

Sometimes I get turned on imagining her telling me, as i am busy licking her pussy in my sissiest outfits, that ” I am such a good sissy… that im a good pussy licker… that i am a lucky sissy to be able to have the pleasure of worshipping Mistress’s pussy”…

The sissy side of me loves this praise for being a good sissy, but the male part of me, the part that finds it hard to let go is trying to tell me that “I should be fucking her!” and that I should be more of a ‘man’ and not dressing as a total sissy, kneeling and worshipping at my girlfiend’s pussy!